Lesson learned - Joyfulness

After the passed of Joash and his family,
I realize of one important things.
He let me realize that I should enjoy my life with no regret.
Although they had no longer living with us,
they had no regret anymore.
Because they had appreciate their every moment of their living.

Their life are full of rejoice.
From their family photos,
people who dont know them also can feel the joyfulness from their smiley face.

Life that full of sadness only will bring regret.
So, I decided to live my life to the fullest.
No matter who hurt me,
I will forget it and keep going on with my life with joy.
I want to impact people around me just like Joash and his family did.
They are the role model for us to learn from.

Although it's very difficult in accomplishing it,
but, if we try our best,
we will have no regret.

As a conclusion,
our heart determine the succeed we want to have in our life.
Be optimitic.
For sure you'll achieve it =)

Joash, part of our memory

When I get the news from of you that you have not longer with us anymore

I cant stop myself from crying.

Although I'm not very close with u,

but, you were part of my memory.

The reason I know you and your family all because of Jesus Christ.

When I'm in primary school,
you and your family and other church members use to come to my house for Cell Group.
After my uncle move to other place,
all of you did not come here for CG anymore.
The next time I meet you is when I'm having English tuition during Form5 with you mum.
You, Joash, just sitting beside of me.
Because I'm shy, I do not dare to talk much with you.
Pretended that I'm a quiet girl, since I'm not.
After the first day of tuition, I use to tell my mum that I get to sit beside Aunty Chin Loi's son.
The last time I meet you were in the bus way back to KL.
Because we sit at the different place, I cant manage to talk with you.

Just "Hi" and "Bye"'.

I do not have a chance to talk with you anymore right now.

Cos you've been with our beloved God Father in a place called heaven.

I love your smile...

It's so shiny and even get attracted with the deep red dimples you have.

Now,
my last words for you and your family is just R.I.P...
because we're in Jesus Christ, we get to meet each other in the future.
Really really really will miss all of you a lot....

痛~

我真的很痛
很想大哭
面对着你
却说违背自己心情的话

在你面前
我得装得若无其事
嬉皮笑脸的逗着你
我的痛可是你痛的双倍
但是这都是事实

如果让我一时的冲动
带来的痛苦并不会比现在来得轻

我束手无策
我无奈
我伤心
我哭

因为我。。。。。

妈妈不容易当啊~

这几天因为妈妈去了营会，
我就像是被太后娘娘招进宫一样
被逼暂时接手所有妈妈的工作。

妈妈
真的很难当
一大清早就得起来送我家的小瓜们去上学，
然后去巴刹买菜，再而就是烧菜。。。
忙完家务事还得替妹妹补习
因是考试期间了。

哗~
一切忙完时已经是晚上了
自己的时间只有那短短的几个小时
自己都已经是精疲力尽了。

因为这样
我更爱我妈了。
没有她我将会活不下去。
我那24孝的母亲总是习惯为我们打点好一切。
可说我们是那被宠坏的孩子了。
哈哈~

大学生涯结束

大学生涯就到此结束了
故事新的一章将开始

现实还是要面对的。
因为经济不允许，
并没有给自己太多的时间休息。

出来社会工作，
一切不会再像念书时一样了。
赶紧找个工作让自己有个固定的收入
能学习又能支撑生活费

放聪明点~
把不好的思想全抛到一边
让自己有更大的学习空间
时时追求进步
种什么，收的就是什么。
加油！加油！

冲动

很多时候
会有种冲动想做某些事情
一直幻想着故事的发展
多么的美好 ~

但想总是归想
现实并没有想象中的简单
没有想象中的完美

兴致勃勃的当儿
被泼了一桶冷水后
什么兴致都云消雾散了。。。

但如果就如计划中那样
将会成为那美好的回忆 ^o^

男人

坐在床上
不知觉得在思考着他的离开
不知不觉地越想越气

不是说过很爱很爱对方的吗？
原来就那么经不起考验
为何当初要把自己说得那么的伟大
这叫可以为爱情牺牲吗？

亏我那么的相信他是多么爱着她的
就凭人家的一两句话，人家的反对
而选择了离开。。。
轻而易举的被打倒了，烂人！ 
这证实了我所说的一切话都白费了。。。
伤心且生气。。。

大男人！
我真的很讨厌！
为什么你们总是自以为是？！
总以为自己是多么的伟大！
是一个真正的男人就得证明给大家看啊~

越来越觉得男人并不像想象中的那样经得起考验了。。。
还是因为着时代的改变，
女人越变越强悍；
男人越变越懦弱？